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Me as a Hatchling.
01:06 Aug 30 2005
Times Read: 747

All the little added text balloons were done by my mom, these were scanned in as part of a slideshow I did for my parent's anniversary.

Dammit.
10:22 Aug 29 2005
Times Read: 751

I was proud of myself for being in bed before the sun started coming up, until I realized I had to be up for work before the sun came up too.

Fine Cuisine
05:14 Aug 29 2005
Times Read: 755

ToiletDuc: "I've still got to get something to eat before I go to sleep."

Deity: "I've got something you can eat"





Deity wants me to eat her.

Yummy.

It's the song that doesn't end.....
08:18 Aug 20 2005
Times Read: 761

I'm one happy fucking Duc right now.

Incredibly strange mood.
03:08 Aug 20 2005
Times Read: 766

I'm not even sure words are capable of explaining my mood at the moment. I'm energized, on edge, aware, and just generally feeling at the peak of performance. But at the same time, empty and alone.

I feel like a great patriot with no country to stand for.



Fuck, I don't know. It just started on my way home, a blood moon hanging low in the sky, nearly completely full. It's fueled a feeling that's been dwelling inside me for some time now, and given me no outlet for the excess. I'm alive, fully awake, regardless of not being able to sleep, and for once in my life I actually know what I want. And have no way of having it.

It makes me feel like a waste.



"I'm trapped in this world, lonely and fading, heartbroke and waiting, for you to come. I'm trapped in this world, that's not meant for me."

Shit.
18:33 Aug 19 2005
Times Read: 768

I couldn't sleep worth a damn last night... even with all the Benadryl I took. Went to bed before midnight, didn't fall asleep until sometime after 6am. Was supposed to be up at 8 to go to my parent's. *sigh*



Doug Horton's a wanker.

Thank god for Benadryl.
06:09 Aug 19 2005
Times Read: 771

Otherwise, I don't think there's a chance in hell I'd be able to sleep tonight.

errrrrrrr
03:38 Aug 19 2005
Times Read: 773

Too much on my mind, tired as hell, and just... I don't know. I don't feel right. Something doesn't feel right.

Heh... had to do it..... stolen from Khayman
16:03 Aug 18 2005
Times Read: 780

Somehow... I think these quizzes aren't always quite correct....

You are the hidden beauty

Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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Stuffed Animal Fetish?
00:38 Aug 18 2005
Times Read: 786

I was just told I'm like a teddy bear.... but a fuckable teddy bear.

Wow.
07:02 Aug 17 2005
Times Read: 789

That's all I can say right now is.... wow.

New Career Possibility.
14:40 Aug 15 2005
Times Read: 793

If hair equated to intelligence, as much as I just lost brushing the tangles out of my hair, I could qualify for the presidency now.

Dream theory.
20:57 Aug 14 2005
Times Read: 796




Could it be possible that we create out destiny subconsciously as we sleep? I think this could occur during REM sleep, through our dreams. Our subconscious could be planning out our future to varying degrees. This could also provide some explanation as to why REM sleep is the only cycle of sleep that will cause death if singly eliminated. Without out brains being able to plot out our future during REM sleep, we eventually hit the end of the timeline we have planned out, and it causes insanity and death. Also, the more sleep deprived one becomes, the faster you go into REM sleep after falling asleep. There is little doubt that REM sleep is very important to our well-being, but there is much debate as to why it is so important, as is there much debate as to what purpose dreams serve us. This theory could also explain why people sometimes foresee future events in their dreams.





I've posted this a couple of times in threads, hoping to get the opinions of others. It always seems to kill the thread though. So if anyone has an opinion on this, feel free to message me about it.

Zzzzzzzzz
03:59 Aug 13 2005
Times Read: 799

I'm fucking exhausted.

Mi vida es buena.
04:57 Aug 11 2005
Times Read: 806

Soy muy feliz. Mi diosa, usted es asobrosa.

Life, the Universe, and Everything.
09:49 Aug 10 2005
Times Read: 811

Fuck.
09:49 Aug 10 2005
Times Read: 813

I just did a few things that were the hardests things I've had to do in a long time.

Heh.... random amusement.
02:53 Aug 06 2005
Times Read: 822

This is the result of taking a break from the bloody Quadrivium contest, and going stir-crazy.

Nifty.
02:24 Aug 05 2005
Times Read: 825

Sociopath You are 85% Rational, 28% Extroverted, 57% Brutal, and 71% Arrogant.

You are the Sociopath! As a result of your cold, calculating rationality, your introversion (and ability to keep quiet), your brutality, and your arrogance, you would make a very cunning serial killer. You care very little for the feelings of others, possibly because you are not a very emotional person. You are also very calculating and intelligent, making you a perfect criminal mastermind. Also, you are a very arrogant person, tending to see yourself as better than others, providing you a strong ability to perceive others as weak little animals, thus making it easier to kill them. In short, your personality defect is the fact that you could easily be a sociopath, because you are calculating, unemotional, brutal, and arrogant. Please don't kill me for writing mean things about you! To put it less negatively: 1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive. 2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted. 3. You are more BRUTAL than gentle. 4. You are more ARROGANT than humble. Compatibility: Your exact opposite is the Hippie. Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Spiteful Loner, the Smartass, and the Capitalist Pig. * * If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits. The other personality types: The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 75% on Rationality You scored higher than 29% on Extroversion You scored higher than 70% on Brutality You scored higher than 81% on Arrogance

Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on OkCupid Free Online Dating

Wooo procrastination.
16:46 Aug 04 2005
Times Read: 828

Putting off heading out to my uncle's to work some more. Really need the money, but ugh... the heat's horrible.



And I've been horribly distracted by conversing with a Goddess. :P

Hrm.
22:32 Aug 03 2005
Times Read: 833

My heart feels like it's missing a beat here and there, and my breathing keeps.. not sure how to describe it... just kind of... making my brain more aware of it. Not short of breath, or labored breathing, just.... I notice it for a few seconds more then normal.



I've been smoking less, been ingesting less caffeine, and the asthma-like attacks I was starting to have once in awhile have seemed to dissapear. WTF is up with me today?

Maybe I've just been working out in the heat and humidity too much. I am out of shape.

Ah well.



Really, Really need to find a job, other then helping out my uncle, because that's going to be done with soon. Think my dad needs me to help him with some stuff too, but once again, temporary. The one call center I would consider working at hasn't called back yet, and there's not a whole hell of a lot else in this shithole town.



Too bad I don't think I'd be able to make anything as a stripper. :P